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[03 Jan 2005|09:39am] |
Everytime I try to fly, I fall...
I need to stop cutting.
Now.
I need to stop throwing up.
Now.
I need to stop trying to be the perfect person everyone wants me to be.
Life sucks. This is real pain.
This is what real pain feels like.
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[22 Dec 2004|11:59am] |
Back home in Marlboro..
All I have to say is that college surely shows you who your REAL friends are..
To all those, despite our differences and all that we've been through, are still there for me, you are what matters in this world.
To all of my former friends who are conceited, self-involved, and think that friendship can be a one-way street, without any effort on their half.. have wonderful lives -- live, be happy, just don't ever talk to me again.
Even friends that I've had obscene differences with, I have reconciled with. That is called maturity.
I<3MARLBORO
2C/4S FOR LIFE
I miss Caitpoo.
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[09 Nov 2004|04:49pm] |
People have been asking me why I don't really like college... well, I've discovered the reason.
I don't like the fact that it is a new beginning. I miss the history of back home, the background, the true love and friendships that I had,.. a place where everyone knows everything about me and my family and my life and my background... like at Marlboro. Everyone knows that I'm not some stuck up snob, but no one HERE gives me that chance..
Fuck you, Q.U.
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[28 Oct 2004|07:48pm] |
LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!!!!!!!!! I MISS MY LOVELIES!!!!!!!
Marina, I miss you and Kristin and Faye and Caitlin and Maria and Nicoley soooo much you guys have no idea.
I better see you Steven Monafis!!!
And Schlacks, you better find me!!!!!
And Rachel and Blattatatat KNOW they'll see me.
YEAH MARLBORO!!!!!!!!
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[27 Oct 2004|11:32pm] |
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Coming home to Marlboro for Friday night and Saturday morning... :D SO HAPPY AND EXCITED FOR MY MARLBORO BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[22 Oct 2004|02:44pm] |
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Some people are still just as selfish and stupid as they were in high school, and still consider themselves to be the center of the universe.
And HE knows that he's the one thing that I really want at this school and can't have.. and he knows I'm used to getting everything I've ever wanted, and he knows it really gets to me that I can't have him... and he just plays along like neither of us know, flirting and teasing me. Sick little bastard.
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[05 Oct 2004|11:52pm] |
Yeah, so I gave head to a frat guy on the shuttle bus coming back from a club in New Haven Saturday Night.
And then we fucked.
I love college.
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[30 Sep 2004|09:58pm] |
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College is way too hard.
I wanna go home.
Boys are pretty.. I like one. ;D
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[18 Sep 2004|06:59pm] |
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[13 Sep 2004|11:40pm] |
I LOVE Ashley Blatt.
:D
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[08 Sep 2004|09:25pm] |
I wanna go home.
Boys here are mean. Girls here are almost as mean. I have no friends. Everyone is a douche. I hate college. And my classes are ridiculous.
My Honors English 102 which is an honors sophomore class that I placed into, is KILLING ME. The first day, the teacher assigned a 5 - 15 page minimum paper due on 84 pages of reading. Two days later. She's insane. She gives us things to read I don't understand, and we read CHAPTERS a night.
My Honors Economics class SUCKS. I HATE MICROECONOMICS. It is SO hard.
Thank god I'm just taking Honors Calc next semester. I think I would have died. Literally.
I HATE COLLEGE
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[07 Sep 2004|12:00am] |
I really, really wish I was home..
I hate everyone here. I would say, I like maybe, MAYBE 3% of all the hundreds of people I've met.
I wanna go home...
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[26 Aug 2004|07:15pm] |
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I'm quite undecided; my room is set up, everything is nice and perfect. Yet I am torn -- I can't decided if I hate or love college.
Eh.
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[25 Aug 2004|07:41pm] |
College sucks.
I miss my friends.
The books I needed were NOT in stock.
It took forever to get my computer set up.
I want Marlboro. :*(
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[24 Aug 2004|05:02pm] |
This will be the last New Jersey entry.
I'm so sad. I hate goodbyes more than anything -- goodbyes are AWFUL. Even like ones that people left me in IMs, or in voice mails... made me soooo sad. I really, really loved all my friends. It was almost deeper than love, something else.
I can't take saying goodbye to anyone else. I really can't. I don't have anymore tears.
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[23 Aug 2004|05:46pm] |
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I am so sad. Goodbyes are the worst thing ever.
I miss everyone so much already, and I'm still in New Jersey. Like honestly, I'll never have another Ashley Blatt in college. Or another Jess Whanger. Or another Britney Greenhouse. Or another Jackie Pereda. I'm gonna miss this place...
Goodbyes so far:
--Samantha Dercher
--Rachel Tarantul
--Laura Angarone
--Ashley Blatt
--Lia Kantor
--Krissy Strubbe
...And many more to come.
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[22 Aug 2004|05:08pm] |
OKAY, my phone has FINALLY been fixed, and now I can receive calls AND make them instead of just making them. SO CALL ME, AND NOW I CAN ACTUALLY GET YOUR CALLS!!!!!!!!!!!
Also: college in 60 hours. :( :( :(
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[18 Aug 2004|11:26pm] |
-ASHLEY BLATT
-Marwa
-Mallory
-Zenobi
-Jackie Pereda
-Amy FUCKING COOPERSTEIN WHERE ARE YOU
-Amanda Rostowsky
-Jess Allen
-Julia Chang
-Ali Malone
-Courtney Schwartz
-BRITTNI WEINER WHO DISAPPEARED OFF THE FACE OF THE PLANET
-Blake Zwerin
-Dani Katz
-Marina Lyubarsky
-Kristin Casa who ALSO DISAPPEARED
-Jill Roberts
-SAMI DERCHER
-Alana Heumann
-Mon Mon DeFalco
-Melissa Kahn
-Jessie Moya
-Nikki Papaioannou
-TASHA
-Jillian Fischer
-Justine Winkler
-Jess Whang
-Britney Greenhouse
-Steph Sherms
-Mal Tuckahhh
-Suzie Ross
-Kurnikova
-Jamal Schwah
-Melissa Kotick
-Jess Schirippa
-Mosh Solomon
-Mosh Valevich
-Sam Friedman
-Sam J. Becker
SOME PEOPLE I HOPE I NEVER SEE AGAIN, IN CODE:
-Shitheaded manipulative bitch
-Ugly balloon faced loser who deserves to be shot for being so ugly
-YEAH, that's about it. Those two bitches know who they are.
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[18 Aug 2004|11:24pm] |
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I love being me. Sometimes.
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